Lately,

I’m exhausted. All I want to do is sleep and eat. Well and go out to have a good time, which is probably why I’m so tired.

Normally I’m pretty Antisocial but lately, I can’t stop thinking about getting out of this house and having some cocktails and snacks, maybe even doing some dancing…

And I never dance. Like absolutely never. Unless I’m already drunk… and at home… or with a girlfriend who insists… BUT, lately I want to dance. I want to put on a dress and roll my shoulders and hips to some sexy music.

And again, NEVER DO I WANT THIS!

So now what do I do? The Husband doesn’t dance either so I’m completely at a loss. Well he has danced with me before but it’s when we are home and a bit tipsy and the music was just right but that’s only happened maybe once or twice.

Okay, I’m off topic now. I want to get outta here is the point. I want to run to a different city. Stay in a swanky hotel and do my makeup. See a show… maybe get a big glass of vodka… Mmmm it sounds so good… Maybe get a steak? Forget I have diabetes? Forget I haven’t been able to get pregnant? Forget that I can barely afford to buy the new dress and handbag I bought last weekend… Or the Uncommon James jewelry I’m about to buy because of the massive sale going on right now. I need a reality shake up, in a positive way because over the past year or so it’s been one BAM after another around here.

Moving to a new city. BAM!

Unexplained infertility. BAM!

DKA and Type 1 Diabetes. BAM!

Having someone try to break into my new home while I was home alone and then had to cops draw a gun on ME when they came to investigate. BAM!

Endless family visits at my home. BAM!

All new. All adjustments. All mentally draining and exhausting. And I’m ready to have something good and new come into my life. Oh did I mention my left knee has been also killing me? Like offically needing icy hot for it almost every single day.

Alright. I’m done with this rant, I’ll try to be more positive next time. Ha ha….

EAG